He’s in one room, I’m in another. Both of us enjoying the last few minutes of quiet solitude before the littles awake. Both reeling from the past 18 hours. Both praying, while not knowing exactly how to pray just yet.
Both slightly relieved, but also slightly brokenhearted. We have prayed for relief. And it has come, but not in the way we might have chosen.
There is a side of us that may have wanted to pridefully “stand up for ourselves” but instead we are humbled. And now we are caught between a hundred different emotions. But the one thing in front of us is TRUTH. We need truth. We need the Living Word to speak to our heart of hearts and confess what we know is true. God is Good. ALL the time. He was good yesterday as we obliviously prepared ourselves for the week. He will be good today. And tomorrow, as we wait for “what’s next.”
This valley comes immediately after a mountain of blessing as I have just returned from a weekend of refreshment and being filled at the DotMom Conference. Throughout the weekend, I found myself overcome with thankful emotion and sober realization of all that God continues to bless with and to BE for us as moms and wives. I came home with my cup full. I’m thankful for that. He gave what I would need because He knew I would need it.
Because as we’ve struggled through the last half-day, the words of encouragement have been rapid firing in my head and heart.
The lyrics from the worship we took part in Friday and Saturday have been “sticking around.” I’ve been reminded again and again of His promises. Yesterday, upon learning our news, I immediately turned on my “Audrey Assad” Pandora station. (so good.) And every song. Every lyric, most taken or developed from scripture– they spoke truth exactly when I needed it.
And today, when there are NO ANSWERS? Promises are exactly what I need.
Times like this require that we speak the truth to our hearts. That we “Remind our Souls” of all that we have in Christ. All that we know to be true.
It’s hard to combat the fear of the unknown in our own hearts. The only way I know is to truly meditate on what is truth. Truly keep speaking truth to my soul. Speaking scripture. There are NO better words of encouragement than we can find than in God’s Word.
“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from evil; He will keep your life.
The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and evermore.” Psalm 121